As I go through life, the understanding that some of us are just not... built for the chaotic, clusterfuck of a circus that society pressures the world to become was not only cemented, but also encased in an indestructible material. Every time I hear someone's downplaying, minimizing and trivializing "aren't we all a little bit ADHD?" comment I feel an urge to shake some sense into them.

Instead of doing that, here's a glimpse into how I experience ADHD.

ADHD is...¶

1. Your brain making your body physically rebel against sitting down and working – like actually being unable to sit because it's uncomfortable and borderline painful, no matter if you're a textbook, poster boy for ergonomics or a crooked shrimp.
2. Remembering the faces of people you were introduced to five years ago, but not their name
3. Needing the utmost concentration while preparing meal dividers for your newborn, as your fucking brain just can't count to 6 without thinking about literally anything else.
4. Trying to find the most bizarre object on your desk to play with or combine together with a different object to form an ADHD-fuelled megazord because that fucking 30 minute meething turned out to be 1 hour long.
5. Creating a whole new fucking HomeAssistant dashboard right fucking NOW instead of toggling a switch because your wife told you that the light in the bathroom didn't turn on.
6. Drinking coffee or black tea and going straight to bed, because caffeine doesn’t work on you
7. Remembering every single little things about a video game you’ve played over a year ago, yet failing to remember what you’ve had for breakfast two days ago
8. Accepting the fact that when you tell people you have ADHD they will just fucking dismiss it, and then get surprised when it manifests itself
9. Having tens of unstarted projects in your backlog, because everything is interesting and you want to do them all, but just don't have enough time
10. Having that one drawer meticulously organized, while the rest of your space
11. Taking just a few minutes longer in the bathroom just because it’s quiet
12. Having a little dance in your head when you were able to do what you set out to do, because having one externally will be misunderstood just because “you did a thing”
13. Opening Obsidian to take some notes, only to find yourself half an hour later waist deep into reading about the psychology of color palettes
    1. For the record, the journey here is: Open Obsidian -> "I think I can tweak the font a bit" -> "but now the colors feel... wrong" -> "why this color works but this one doesn't" -> WHY.
14. Constantly feeling like you’re being judged for something you cannot control
15. Constantly asking yourself if you’re inadequate because society is expecting unrealistic results from you
16. Opening iOS Shortcuts every time you go down the elevator just to see if any new actions were added because your brain is not occupied enough on this (not even) one minute long journey